Sorry

Ok, purely theoretical audience! Sorry about being so late, and not doing anything for sooooo long. I'm afraid I still haven't done anything substantial.

but to the matter at hand

My "best friend" who I've always considered my best friend, is probably not. I've known this for a long time, she's slowly closing me off from everything. It feels to me like everyone else knows everything and I'm left out alone. She's writing a book, ok. Each of her friends has a name in it, she's doing it slightly based on her life I guess. She's actually managed to complete some of it and stay focused and determined. I don't know how to do that. Maybe it's because my subjects that I write about in my "books" are not having enough feeling for me. Or maybe I'm just not a writer. I love writing I really do. I say I don't have time but I really do. It's just stupid things like iPods and TVs that distract me and make me brain dead. I think it's probably both. If I can, when I'm in New York over break while my cousins are still in school I will sit down at my computer and start from a clean slate. And just try and write something that actually means something to me that I will be happy about and determined to finish. Or draw or paint. I can't decide which of my arts to focus on, Writing, Drawing or Acting/Singing. Life is hard and unfair. It's to sad to be an optimist.

FINALLY!!!

Ok, so this "FINALLY!!!" is for 2 things. First of all, it's the beginning of the holiday season!! Today was my last day of school for a whole 9 days for Thanksgiving! and Thanksgiving of course marks the time when people start going crazy about winter and Christmas, and presents and relatives! The second thing is that I actually really superly DID SOMETHING!! Today was picture day at my school, and during the time when I was bored and sitting, I stole my friend's pen and started drawing on my hand. Guess what I drew?? A downscaled and less detailed version of these:

CATMAN Bringer of Justice, Freedom, Peace, and Catnip

The City of FELITH is his Home
My poeple need me to protect them-Catman

Apprehending the Evil-Doers is his Obligation to Felith

It's not a finished series, and these are not on white paper yet, it's still lined paper. But I am considering seriously pursuing this as a series of my drawings. I think it's a promising start, and so, my purely theoretical audience, what do you think? If you really exist will you leave a comment about what you think of it? Please?

Degrading

so you guys don't know him, but my science teacher mr. fiser is a really.....let's say strange guy. at least it's an improvement, right?!? it's a comic! this was something he actually said to us this morning and I made a quick sketch in class.

Sleep and it's affect on ideas

Yesterday night I had an amazing idea for a cartoon! which I started by the way..... but anyways, I'm sure I had planned out every single panel, every detail of the words and hair and background. but of course, instead of writing all of the amazing shtuff down for an hour I fell dead asleep when my head hit the pillow. and of course as you can probably discern from the title, most of that died in the mist of dreams during sleep. sure, I still remember the main idea, the first couple slides, but not to the extent I want to. I find myself stuck and not remembering what I wanted!! I must admit it is looking pretty cool and promising already but still, not what I imagined!

it seems I always over-imagine things and mostly they turn out only 75% of my original idea.......

but I will cheer you guys (and myself) up with an adowable picture of Mr. Black!!

SICK SUCKS.

I have a stomach virus which I am slowly recovering from, but this is the third day I've missed school!! It's so boring....I mean, yeah you can watch tv, play on the computer or whatever, but none of your friends are free. Its butt man.

Graaahhhhh

My computer is being so slow!!! the start button is stuck halfway open just sitting there being transparent...... homework has an amazingly bad influence on everyone, including the Internet.

that chocolate would really cheer me up, if it was 85% cacao.... I L O V E dark chocolate....

Names

" 'Tis but they name that is my enemy; Thou art thyself, though not a Montague.What's Montague? It is nor hand nor foot nor arm nor face nor any other part belonging to a man. O be some other name. What's in a name? That which we call a rose By any other word would smell as swett. Romeo would, if he were not Romeo called, Retain that dear perfection to which he owes Without that title. Romeo, doff thy name, and for that name, which is no part of thee, take all myself."
                                                          - Juliet

In 6th grade I took the elective wheel for elective, instead of the music program. One of the wheels, which was one of my favorite and least favorite at the same time, was Shakespeare. Part of the class is that girls had to memorize the Juliet part, and boys had to memorize the Romeo part. Then we would perform in front of the class with one of the boys as "our Romeo" I was the first girl to memorize all the lines, so naturally, I was paired with the first boy to finish memorizing the lines. It just happened to be the guy who "ruined my 6th grade life" who I just happen to hate very much. I had to recite words of love and star into his eyes. I had to be in love with this guy who I want to kill. Geez.

But anyways, the Juliet quote has to do with what I was discussing with a girl on Facebook. She thinks her name is strange and doesn't like it very much. I just happen to L-O-V-E my name so very much because it is so unique. I will post the little paragraph I wrote to her in a comment: I am trusting my purely theoretical audience not to stalk me, like I said in my "biography" on the right side of the page -------------------->
 also my friends name

i like my name. a lot. PROBABLY VERY VERY MUCH MORE THAN OTHER PEOPLE. but it is not an average name. IT IS UNIQUE. you are much more likely to find another paulyn lao than fei ewald. fei is a name you usually see only in Asia, china mostly. fey, fay, faye are in the US but thats not my name, no. i've met people name fey and faye and fay and they say "oh hey we have the same name!" noop. not even close ladies. and EWALD! don't get me started. thats german, and in germany its AVALT. It means "from the forest" thats....i'm from singapore, more of a suburban jungle if you ask me. so the combination of mandarin FEI with german EWALD is very....strange, uncommon. but you know whats even stranger, is fei ALEXANDRA ewald. ALEXANDRA. thats a catholic saint. HOW MANY MANDARIN CATHOLICS FROM THE GERMAN FOREST ARE YOU GOING TO FIND HMM??? TELL ME THAT

so. Thats my name. like it? I DO. If you don't then too bad so sad for you. you're missing out on having a wonderful life