Sleep and it's affect on ideas

Yesterday night I had an amazing idea for a cartoon! which I started by the way..... but anyways, I'm sure I had planned out every single panel, every detail of the words and hair and background. but of course, instead of writing all of the amazing shtuff down for an hour I fell dead asleep when my head hit the pillow. and of course as you can probably discern from the title, most of that died in the mist of dreams during sleep. sure, I still remember the main idea, the first couple slides, but not to the extent I want to. I find myself stuck and not remembering what I wanted!! I must admit it is looking pretty cool and promising already but still, not what I imagined!

it seems I always over-imagine things and mostly they turn out only 75% of my original idea.......

but I will cheer you guys (and myself) up with an adowable picture of Mr. Black!!

SICK SUCKS.

I have a stomach virus which I am slowly recovering from, but this is the third day I've missed school!! It's so boring....I mean, yeah you can watch tv, play on the computer or whatever, but none of your friends are free. Its butt man.

Graaahhhhh

My computer is being so slow!!! the start button is stuck halfway open just sitting there being transparent...... homework has an amazingly bad influence on everyone, including the Internet.

that chocolate would really cheer me up, if it was 85% cacao.... I L O V E dark chocolate....

Names

" 'Tis but they name that is my enemy; Thou art thyself, though not a Montague.What's Montague? It is nor hand nor foot nor arm nor face nor any other part belonging to a man. O be some other name. What's in a name? That which we call a rose By any other word would smell as swett. Romeo would, if he were not Romeo called, Retain that dear perfection to which he owes Without that title. Romeo, doff thy name, and for that name, which is no part of thee, take all myself."
                                                          - Juliet

In 6th grade I took the elective wheel for elective, instead of the music program. One of the wheels, which was one of my favorite and least favorite at the same time, was Shakespeare. Part of the class is that girls had to memorize the Juliet part, and boys had to memorize the Romeo part. Then we would perform in front of the class with one of the boys as "our Romeo" I was the first girl to memorize all the lines, so naturally, I was paired with the first boy to finish memorizing the lines. It just happened to be the guy who "ruined my 6th grade life" who I just happen to hate very much. I had to recite words of love and star into his eyes. I had to be in love with this guy who I want to kill. Geez.

But anyways, the Juliet quote has to do with what I was discussing with a girl on Facebook. She thinks her name is strange and doesn't like it very much. I just happen to L-O-V-E my name so very much because it is so unique. I will post the little paragraph I wrote to her in a comment: I am trusting my purely theoretical audience not to stalk me, like I said in my "biography" on the right side of the page -------------------->
 also my friends name

i like my name. a lot. PROBABLY VERY VERY MUCH MORE THAN OTHER PEOPLE. but it is not an average name. IT IS UNIQUE. you are much more likely to find another paulyn lao than fei ewald. fei is a name you usually see only in Asia, china mostly. fey, fay, faye are in the US but thats not my name, no. i've met people name fey and faye and fay and they say "oh hey we have the same name!" noop. not even close ladies. and EWALD! don't get me started. thats german, and in germany its AVALT. It means "from the forest" thats....i'm from singapore, more of a suburban jungle if you ask me. so the combination of mandarin FEI with german EWALD is very....strange, uncommon. but you know whats even stranger, is fei ALEXANDRA ewald. ALEXANDRA. thats a catholic saint. HOW MANY MANDARIN CATHOLICS FROM THE GERMAN FOREST ARE YOU GOING TO FIND HMM??? TELL ME THAT

so. Thats my name. like it? I DO. If you don't then too bad so sad for you. you're missing out on having a wonderful life

Excited!!

I'm so excited and wish school would hurry up and get here.... I've never wished that the day would end and night would go by fast before, but tonight I do because I just got a really daring hair cut! it's really really short like a pixie cut but not exactly. It's something I've always wanted to try but never had the guts to before. Now I did and I'm really glad!!

PROCRASTINATION!!

I would like to say that I've been drawing some more but I HAVEN'T!! it's so stupid.

Friends again....

I've been reading my friend's blog, and I'm beginning to realize how amazing she is. She and I had the idea to start a blog a long long time ago, but only started it at the same time recently. She talks about how us girls are her soul sisters and would not give us up for anything. She is sad about all the things that I would not have guessed, and finds joy in so much less. We have something in common, that we both lie to ourselves. A lot. I am such a crazy and random person, I'm not afraid to say what I want to people or voice my opinions, I don't care what other people care about me. Of course everyone who says that including me cares very much about what people think and so act like they don't. My friend  and I.....We were inseparable in 6th grade and the beginning of 7th grade, and now....we're separating. Over a damn boy. Something we promised ourselves would never happen. Its not just the boy. I feel changes in her that are really sad to me, jokes that I make would have been funny earlier, but they're not anymore. Actions I make that would have been funny before, they're not. A look I find myself getting from her is a look of.....discontent, annoyance, disbelief, disappointment, and all of those words. Then she turns and runs to my other best friends. I've been so sad over her, and so sad because when I'm concerned about her I tend to get caught up. I've realized that my friends are most important to me aside from my family, and that I'm a bitch. Of course, I've known that all along but still. My other friend, she....she makes me feel the same way, but I know that I'm the one in the right and she is being selfish. I'm selfish. and lazy too.

Anyways, aside from sadder maters, Mr. Black (my cat) gained weight! he is a hefty cat, and weighs about 10 lbs!! thats a lot for a small cat like him. When he runs (hardly) you can see his belly go wibble-wobble from side to side :)