Saturday, December 29, 2012


So, for the next four days I have no plans of homework! Even though I still have an essay to write but no matter! I will be busy with cousins and the new year, and food and everything but I am still trying to do the map thingy I said I would start!

Eh. I wish I had something to show you guys, my adoring fans, my purely theoretical audience.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

So, Christmas

So tomorrow is CHRISTMAS?!?!? yes it is. I'm in New York with all my cousins and the Christmas presents are wrapped and under the tree. The cookies are in the oven and pies are on the table. I'm super duper excited! Unfortunately, I have not started my new project because, being in eighth grade, I have loads and loads of homework. Especially English.

But: here's a sneak peak. I'm going to make a list, and eventually a map of the United States with cat names for cities.


Thursday, December 13, 2012


Ok. Tomorrow is the LAST DAY OF SCHOOL FOR THREE WEEKS!!! I'm going ice skating with my friends tomorrow afternoon, and going on a date with my boyfriend on Sunday before I leave on Monday at 4 pm for New York!!! I'm not coming back until Jan. 4th, so this is the last time my friends will see me in the flesh until then.

So, the reason I titled this Christmas is because every year before winter break, I make little trinkets for all my friends as temporary Christmas presents! Last year I made little brooches with beads on them out of safety pins. This year is my most elaborate project ever, which I gave myself so little time to make. I am making personalized bookmarks for every single one of my friends, and drawing them myself! This also gives me an opportunity to show you guys some pretty cute drawings!
I did something at the folded top that represents their name, then underneath something that we have in common or something that they like a lot or something to do with books! I think they're really cute but they are SUPER time consuming. I think I might give them to people as a LATE Christmas present when I come back in Jan.

So, purely theoretical audience, howd'ya like em? :)

Tuesday, December 4, 2012


Ok, purely theoretical audience! Sorry about being so late, and not doing anything for sooooo long. I'm afraid I still haven't done anything substantial.

but to the matter at hand

My "best friend" who I've always considered my best friend, is probably not. I've known this for a long time, she's slowly closing me off from everything. It feels to me like everyone else knows everything and I'm left out alone. She's writing a book, ok. Each of her friends has a name in it, she's doing it slightly based on her life I guess. She's actually managed to complete some of it and stay focused and determined. I don't know how to do that. Maybe it's because my subjects that I write about in my "books" are not having enough feeling for me. Or maybe I'm just not a writer. I love writing I really do. I say I don't have time but I really do. It's just stupid things like iPods and TVs that distract me and make me brain dead. I think it's probably both. If I can, when I'm in New York over break while my cousins are still in school I will sit down at my computer and start from a clean slate. And just try and write something that actually means something to me that I will be happy about and determined to finish. Or draw or paint. I can't decide which of my arts to focus on, Writing, Drawing or Acting/Singing. Life is hard and unfair. It's to sad to be an optimist.

Friday, November 16, 2012


Ok, so this "FINALLY!!!" is for 2 things. First of all, it's the beginning of the holiday season!! Today was my last day of school for a whole 9 days for Thanksgiving! and Thanksgiving of course marks the time when people start going crazy about winter and Christmas, and presents and relatives! The second thing is that I actually really superly DID SOMETHING!! Today was picture day at my school, and during the time when I was bored and sitting, I stole my friend's pen and started drawing on my hand. Guess what I drew?? A downscaled and less detailed version of these:
CATMAN Bringer of Justice, Freedom, Peace, and Catnip
The City of FELITH is his Home
My poeple need me to protect them-Catman
Apprehending the Evil-Doers is his Obligation to Felith
It's not a finished series, and these are not on white paper yet, it's still lined paper. But I am considering seriously pursuing this as a series of my drawings. I think it's a promising start, and so, my purely theoretical audience, what do you think? If you really exist will you leave a comment about what you think of it? Please?

Monday, November 5, 2012


so you guys don't know him, but my science teacher mr. fiser is a really.....let's say strange guy. at least it's an improvement, right?!? it's a comic! this was something he actually said to us this morning and I made a quick sketch in class.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Sleep and it's affect on ideas

Yesterday night I had an amazing idea for a cartoon! which I started by the way..... but anyways, I'm sure I had planned out every single panel, every detail of the words and hair and background. but of course, instead of writing all of the amazing shtuff down for an hour I fell dead asleep when my head hit the pillow. and of course as you can probably discern from the title, most of that died in the mist of dreams during sleep. sure, I still remember the main idea, the first couple slides, but not to the extent I want to. I find myself stuck and not remembering what I wanted!! I must admit it is looking pretty cool and promising already but still, not what I imagined!

it seems I always over-imagine things and mostly they turn out only 75% of my original idea.......

but I will cheer you guys (and myself) up with an adowable picture of Mr. Black!!

Thursday, October 25, 2012


I have a stomach virus which I am slowly recovering from, but this is the third day I've missed school!! It's so boring....I mean, yeah you can watch tv, play on the computer or whatever, but none of your friends are free. Its butt man.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012


My computer is being so slow!!! the start button is stuck halfway open just sitting there being transparent...... homework has an amazingly bad influence on everyone, including the Internet.

that chocolate would really cheer me up, if it was 85% cacao.... I L O V E dark chocolate....

Tuesday, October 2, 2012


" 'Tis but they name that is my enemy; Thou art thyself, though not a Montague.What's Montague? It is nor hand nor foot nor arm nor face nor any other part belonging to a man. O be some other name. What's in a name? That which we call a rose By any other word would smell as swett. Romeo would, if he were not Romeo called, Retain that dear perfection to which he owes Without that title. Romeo, doff thy name, and for that name, which is no part of thee, take all myself."
                                                          - Juliet

In 6th grade I took the elective wheel for elective, instead of the music program. One of the wheels, which was one of my favorite and least favorite at the same time, was Shakespeare. Part of the class is that girls had to memorize the Juliet part, and boys had to memorize the Romeo part. Then we would perform in front of the class with one of the boys as "our Romeo" I was the first girl to memorize all the lines, so naturally, I was paired with the first boy to finish memorizing the lines. It just happened to be the guy who "ruined my 6th grade life" who I just happen to hate very much. I had to recite words of love and star into his eyes. I had to be in love with this guy who I want to kill. Geez.

But anyways, the Juliet quote has to do with what I was discussing with a girl on Facebook. She thinks her name is strange and doesn't like it very much. I just happen to L-O-V-E my name so very much because it is so unique. I will post the little paragraph I wrote to her in a comment: I am trusting my purely theoretical audience not to stalk me, like I said in my "biography" on the right side of the page -------------------->
 also my friends name

i like my name. a lot. PROBABLY VERY VERY MUCH MORE THAN OTHER PEOPLE. but it is not an average name. IT IS UNIQUE. you are much more likely to find another paulyn lao than fei ewald. fei is a name you usually see only in Asia, china mostly. fey, fay, faye are in the US but thats not my name, no. i've met people name fey and faye and fay and they say "oh hey we have the same name!" noop. not even close ladies. and EWALD! don't get me started. thats german, and in germany its AVALT. It means "from the forest" thats....i'm from singapore, more of a suburban jungle if you ask me. so the combination of mandarin FEI with german EWALD is very....strange, uncommon. but you know whats even stranger, is fei ALEXANDRA ewald. ALEXANDRA. thats a catholic saint. HOW MANY MANDARIN CATHOLICS FROM THE GERMAN FOREST ARE YOU GOING TO FIND HMM??? TELL ME THAT

so. Thats my name. like it? I DO. If you don't then too bad so sad for you. you're missing out on having a wonderful life

Sunday, September 30, 2012


I'm so excited and wish school would hurry up and get here.... I've never wished that the day would end and night would go by fast before, but tonight I do because I just got a really daring hair cut! it's really really short like a pixie cut but not exactly. It's something I've always wanted to try but never had the guts to before. Now I did and I'm really glad!!

Saturday, September 29, 2012


I would like to say that I've been drawing some more but I HAVEN'T!! it's so stupid.

Friday, September 28, 2012

Friends again....

I've been reading my friend's blog, and I'm beginning to realize how amazing she is. She and I had the idea to start a blog a long long time ago, but only started it at the same time recently. She talks about how us girls are her soul sisters and would not give us up for anything. She is sad about all the things that I would not have guessed, and finds joy in so much less. We have something in common, that we both lie to ourselves. A lot. I am such a crazy and random person, I'm not afraid to say what I want to people or voice my opinions, I don't care what other people care about me. Of course everyone who says that including me cares very much about what people think and so act like they don't. My friend  and I.....We were inseparable in 6th grade and the beginning of 7th grade, and now....we're separating. Over a damn boy. Something we promised ourselves would never happen. Its not just the boy. I feel changes in her that are really sad to me, jokes that I make would have been funny earlier, but they're not anymore. Actions I make that would have been funny before, they're not. A look I find myself getting from her is a look of.....discontent, annoyance, disbelief, disappointment, and all of those words. Then she turns and runs to my other best friends. I've been so sad over her, and so sad because when I'm concerned about her I tend to get caught up. I've realized that my friends are most important to me aside from my family, and that I'm a bitch. Of course, I've known that all along but still. My other friend, she....she makes me feel the same way, but I know that I'm the one in the right and she is being selfish. I'm selfish. and lazy too.

Anyways, aside from sadder maters, Mr. Black (my cat) gained weight! he is a hefty cat, and weighs about 10 lbs!! thats a lot for a small cat like him. When he runs (hardly) you can see his belly go wibble-wobble from side to side :)

Friday, September 14, 2012


I have started another comic about Science, and I started it in my very boring science class. it's in low quality purple stolen from my science teacher but oh well. it also has white-out splotches, and is even LESS of what I want out of my comics.

I was discussing doodling with my friend today, and up came some interesting points:

doodlers have better memory
doodlers are able to pay attention at the same time as they are not paying attention
doodlers are better multitaskers
and that this year in school our teachers leave me no room to doodle

my english teacher will grade and read my journal, and will not tolerate doodles
my geometry teacher will grade and read my notes notebook, and will not tolerate doodling
my science teacher will grade and go through my whole science binder, and will not tolerate doodling
my history teacher will grade and read all of our packets, and will not tolerate doodling

in the past years I have always had notebooks that my teachers wouldn't look at so I could doodle in them, or even teachers who don't mind or even ENCOURAGE me to doodle on my papers. this concept irks me.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Mr. Black

So two things (or more) to cover today. First off : Mr. Black is the most adorable thing ever!!!


And secondly, I know my sort of purpose for this blog was to post comics and whatever but in reality, my blog will probably never be ANYTHING like the blogs I mentioned getting inspiration from. A Beautiful Mess and Cat Versus Human are probably super awesome compared to mine, shabby shab shab as it is. Both of those blogs have a CLEAR purpose. Cat vs Human (Yasmine Surovec) posts adorable cat comics using photoshop or some super high-tech design program that I don't know about. A Beautiful Mess posts awesome articles about crafts, photography, fashion and all cool kinds of stuff and both blogs probably have a good enough profit. Think about it for a second, my posts have ranged from talking about my cat (!), spouting feelings, posting ONE comic that was pretty stupid, and I don't know stuff just plain STUFF.

So. Yeah. Just saying this blog will probably not turn out to be what my intentions were. If you guys hadn't figured that out yet.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012


Ok, I understand the need for homework. But it gets in the way of doodling!!

So I have drawn a little comic (not that little) about what happened one morning at school to me and my two other friends. It doesn't have Mr. Black in it unfortunately, but its still quite good, I think. And these are all rough drafts, but maybe one day after someone giving me motivation (hint hint *point* you!!) gaaaaahhhhhh I might just show you a FINAL DRAFT. How awesome is that huh?

I know I said I didn't start a blog for views, but as I also said, I'm still going to complain about people not leaving comments.

My English class at school has let me think about how FAKE I am. My best friend (i think) has helped me think about how STUPID and MEAN and INCONSIDERATE I am. My other best friend ( i also think) has helped me think about how STUPID and MEAN and INCONSIDERATE I am allowed to be, because I don't give a (sorry) FUCK. My boyfriend, yes boyfriend has helped me think about how I shouldn't waste my talent, or stuff, or something along those lines, and has shown me I have not even BEGUN to see how AWKWARD the world is allowed to be.

and math homework has shown me how little time i have.

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Ugh!!! School

I do not like homework on the weekends. Especially ones like this, when it's the perfect day to take a dip in your friend's giant inflatable pool that's all set up in their backyard already but no. My mom picked me up at 10 in the morning to come home and finish the extensive amount of HW I have to do. About 3 hours worth. 21 questions of history, 17 long complicated math problems, reading a chapter from my history book, and writing a 5 stanza poem based on Henry Wadsworth Longfellow's poem Paul Revere's Midnight Ride. it doesn't seem like a lot but it is to me. I am procrastinating now! THANK YOU my purely theoretical audience for helping me with my procrastination for my HW!!

Friday, September 7, 2012


So, how did you guys like the crappy comic? :) ok, maybe not that crappy but it's not what I want.


 geez. you know, I'm at a friends house right now, and we're both working on our blogs.
This post from here down, is me venting my feelings.

I am a liar, a horrible horrible advice giver, I act wrongly in dire situations, I have no sense of limits or idk.... I have no sensitivity, I should stop saying curse words but FUCK

im done for now but this will come back.

Thursday, September 6, 2012


Ok so I am going to post on of the smaller comics I did, that isn't quite what I want, but it was a quick rough draft. I am finally doing something! well, kind of. This is a comic I drew the day before school started and would like very much to revise it and redo it, but I don't.
So there you have it, and yes, it is on a bunch of tags on a string. I was going through my school stuff and I started. Usually my drawings will be in the orange marker you see in "my" dress, but I was using a friend's marker that i had stolen the year before, and I gave it back. My people are all wearing those little stupid dresses because i think it looks better than drawing guys with shorts, or stick people, because girls in dresses and guys in pants is so stereotypical. I don't like to wear dresses so.

Because she asked, I will mention this girl.... I will try not to mention names in this blog, or any names that are not known to the general public, or I dont know maybe I will if I ever write about my personal life. Maybe I won't. I don't know and at this point don't care. But back to the first sentence of this paragraph.

Because she asked, Amelia is hereby mentioned in this post. :)

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

ok I'm just bored now

so I have decided to let my purely theoretical audience "meet" my cat. if you don't like cats then I don't know why you are on this blog the title is cats and pie but mostly nothing so ou know.... if that's not misleading in anyway then you should like them thoroughly . Frankly everyone should like if not LOVE cats but there's a very small chance of that dream coming true. His name is Mr. Black and untrue to popular belief, THAT IS NOT RACIST. He is a cat not a human and "black"/ African American cats do not exist. -__- deal with it. He was a stray and he found us when we moved into our current house (remember how my bio says "don't stalk me" ? I'm not going to tell you who "we" is or where I live. it's not that I'm afraid of people coming to kill me in my sleep or whatever, it's mostly for the suspense. I'm an "author" too you know!) and now w lives with us and is way too fat and mooches as much food as he can off us. He is probably 3 or 4 years old which is about 30 cat years so he's a big boy. FELLOW CAT PEOPLE!!! UNITE!!!!


and you know how I said I wasn't EXPECTING comments or views or whatever, but you know, a little encouragement could be helpful. Just some indication that my purely theoretical audience is out there somewhere, viewing my not much of a blog....... just saying that comments are not EXPECTED but they are ohhh so welcome!

Saturday, August 11, 2012

My gosh

ugh see this is why I was DEBATING to start a blog because I knew I wouldn't post regularly. I keep starting to open blogger and then stop and do something else, or I have this cool idea for this post in my head but I take too long, forget, and then don't post at all. You know and also I drew some pretty cool comics and I keep saying I'm going to take the pics and post them but I don't, and idk I just am a BIG BIG BIG PROCRASTINATOR myself so.


I started saying I would do something yesterday? Dang I am such a liar. School starts in 2 and 1/2 days, damn I am getting so sidetracked, i started this an hour ago....-_- ok well really, when I'm bored i wont do anything that I should do. But during school, believe me I will do some cartooning. Don't worry.

Friday, August 10, 2012


wow, I totally failed. I just realized that I can make a title...
You know, I would say that I got some more motivation from something I read or did, but I didnt. I got it from my head. I know, I know, thats not exactly true motivation, but I am a procrastinator... always have been. I guess just having all these ideas in my head are prompting me to do something. Maybe I am copying someone, is that what my purely theoretical readers think? Maybe. Decide for yourself but what you purely theoretical readers will get to see of my "work" (psshhh work) is the best I could do. Not the best I could do, the best I could do while my mind is still motivated. Whatever. You'll hear me use that a lot too. I even get sidetracked while im writing these posts -_-  I have been on this page for like an hour

Thursday, August 9, 2012

You know, i'm also just extremely bored right now, so I will keep writing. I know I wrote some convincing stuff in the last post,and it's true, but i'm still not exactly sure what prompted this blog. Reading the blogs A Beautiful Mess and Cat vs Human i guess kindof inspired me. To my many purely theoretical readers, it might seem a bit strange that a random 12 year old is writing a blog with no intent whatsoever. Or maybe not. I dont know any of my purely theoretical readers personally. I will probably be using that term a lot, purely theoretical readers. Terms. Whatever. *sigh* I am sorry if one of my purely theoretical readers is horrified at my beastly writing skills. Whatever. I had better go to bed but i don't want to. I will for the sake of discipline. Also for the sake of getting caught awake this late at night. By the Way. Right now i am craving honey roasted peanuts.
This blog....not expecting to get views or readers or whatever. I know all the experts on blogging or whatever say to have a "thing" you want to blog about. Well too bad because i don't have one. I am blogging purely for a feeling. That feeling is that for me, I get great satisfaction out of just knowing that some random person. Any person at all could just stumble upon this and read everything I had to say. A random person might not read it if they find it, but they might not necessarily find it at all. Just the fact that they could is enough for me. So there you have it. That is my intent. I mean, i am hoping this fact will maybe motivate me to start doing some of the things that i have been procrastinating on for a long time. There are so many. I am not sure whether i will have a "schedule" or whatever but I will post when I can to my many purely theoretical readers. By the way. My favorite color is purple.